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圆来如此

若有人问起17岁的我为何选择报考华文,我只会傻傻地回一句:“因为我是华人。”

其实我心里知道那并不是我心里那个最好的答案。

从前的我说不出 “我爱华文。”这句话。我一直认为自己没有资格说我爱华文,因为我不像别人那样勤阅读华文小说;我的华文造诣不比一个12岁的小学生好;我写的作文往往都有很口语的字句。

说归说,既然要报考华文,我还是咬着牙挺过去了,我试着接收自己的语病,平常的发音不准, 虽然偶尔还会与别人比较。不知道何时开始,我特别喜欢心情故事这份功课,它不是日记,它单纯的记录我的心情。即使我多么词穷,我都有办法用自己的口吻,描写自己的感受以及对周围的感触。我学会放大生活中的细节,为它们诠释不同的意义;而作文让我拟造自己的故事与主角,教会我放慢脚步,接纳每个故事的美中不足。

如今,华文离开了我的考试范围,但那几本记载着我心情故事的作业簿依然在。

我想,我热爱的是,能够把自己的心情一点一点的描绘在字句里。

圆来,我爱的是热爱以华文表达的自己。

缘来,我离开了高中竟还有机缘说华语。

原来......

圆来如此

其实就想试试写部落格吧,把一些旧的文章发出来,再尝试把新的想法打出来。




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