Oh, why did I choose to post this? EM kind of to remind myself that some things, which might seem like a big deal, are just a small part of my life. Ngl, I cringed so deep while reading it, it was a funny one for me to read. Nevertheless, am still grateful I survived that week.
(ps: this note has been in phone since 2020; CRINGE-WORTHY content ahead)
*raw and unedited, except that I had to remove some spicy content within*
why not write an essay out of it?
- I did, in Mandarin, but that was more of an emotional recount, a much more sentimental one.
- Long story short, I'm lazy and I choose to keep all these more concrete recounts in its original and most authentic form,
- These were from a 17y-o person, please don't judge her grammar, common sense or whatsoever.
15th April 2020
Got a phone call at 3pm 2 positive cases Cried a lil Should I grb my laptop and files No you're not allowed to Then what can I do I dont know Makes me worry when I see you worrying The cold ambulance I was no longer in there wearing my white uniform Royal purple that I loved A Lil loose tho Had to get seminaked for that ecg scan Blood pressure There's chicken in my dinner Phoned my friends Planning how to get into my e learning real soon
16th April 2020
woke up at 2am and 5.30am Checked my bp Drawn some blood at 7. 20 There's chicken in breakfast too
Fried chicken from kfc Had my first online class in the hospital
17th April 2020
5.30 blood pressure 7.30 morning calls breathing rate Why do I have weird dreams every night
Today abot my barbie doll being stolen I used to dislike my grandma's fried bihun Now this plain bihun and scrambled eggs made me think of her Fried fish and vegetarian meal oh wow
18th April 2020
Getting used to 5.30 BP routines Drawn blood from left arm not enough blood Draw again from right, ya there's blood, good And by 8 I can eat again What's on the menu Nasi lemak Took the swab test again Honestly didn't even care what the results are at that point Had a weird dream Complained about the xxxxx teacher
19th April 2020
Got out from hospital Long queue Strong emotions to go back home Good luck little guy I'll remember this. But never want to come back again Dreamt of myself getting no A+ in spm and a B+ in chinese
104:26 PM
((2023 me reading this: "wow out of all dreams, academic pressure and barbie dolls were all you could dream of? you don't even like barbie jhsdkjshdk"
some random photos cuz I wanna clear my gallery heh
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